someone needs to hurry up and give me my own #workoutvideo cause I make dis sh*t look good.

someone needs to hurry up and give me my own #workoutvideo cause I make dis sh*t look good.

Writing produces anxiety. Looking inside myself and my experience, looking at my conflicts, engenders anxiety in me. Being a writer feels very much like being a Chicana, or being a queer– a lot of squirming, coming up against all sorts of walls. Or its opposite: nothing defined or definite, a boundless, floating state of limbo where I kick my heels, brood, percolate, hibernate and wait for something to happen.

Gloria Anzaldúa, Borderlands

Women of Color, Impostor Syndrome, and The Left: On Being a Marxist Xicana Writer

Crystal Stella Becerril

Reading Borderlands in the midst of a tempestuous period in my personal and political growth has proven to be an exercise in understanding my cultural identity as much as it has been a political challenge. One which promises many insights and revelations if I can just make it to the other side.

Part of the challenge, however, involves working thru these political and cultural questions thru writing, and like Anzaldúa notes, there is a great deal of anxiety we experience when writing. For me, becoming a writer has been one of the hardest endeavors I’ve ever undertaken. Identifying as a Marxist Xicana writer, an even harder one.

However, because I don’t often write about myself or my lived experiences most of the anxiety I expereince comes from insecurities about my competency and skills. This, of course, is not a new thing. Women, and particularly women of color, suffer disporportionately from “impostor syndrome,” a psychological phenomenon in which people are unable to internalize their accomplishments despite evidence of their competence.

According to the Counceling Center at CalTech, “Impostor syndrome can be defined as a collection of feelings of inadequacy that persist even in the face of information that indicates that the opposite is true. It is experienced internally as chronic self-doubt, and feelings of intellectual fraudulence.”

I remember first learning of impostor syndrome about a year ago and feeling like I’d finally discovered the root of so much of my anxiety in academia as well as in activist circles. I now had a term for what I’d been feeling all my life and understanding my feelings and their consequences has been a taxing project I’ve had to undertake in order to be able to move forward as a woman of color writer and activist.

Perhaps this is why I have always subconsciously sought out recognition with more frequency than perhaps others do– not so much to fullfil a need to feel important or recognized, but rather as a means by which to convince myself of my own competency. And because I’m not just a woman, but a first-generation Xicana, I’ve had to straddle both worlds and convince myself AND them of my competency and worth.

Let me tell you, this shit is hella exhausting! So if we, the left, want to see more women of color getting involved and leading our movements, I’ma need y’all to be conscious of our social, political, and personal struggles cause trying to survive is hard enough but we out here hustling to thrive in a world that’s stacked all possible odds against us.

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furything:

furything’s store giveaway ~ these are available here
rules:
you must be 18
you must live in the united states
must reblog this once
likes count
you must be following me
how can i earn extra entries?
you can follow my instagram (furything)
you can follow my store instagram (shoploveless)
if you have any other ideas for extra entries just message me
(each one of these counts as an extra entry. i.e. if you reblog this, and follow both of my instagram accounts you will have three entries.) message me your insta user names if you follow me!
you will receive:
a ‘mean bitch’ pocket knife ($5 value)
a black comb knife ($14 value)
a large folding pink knife ($12 value)
If you live in California I cannot ship the comb knife to you because it is illegal in Cali. If you are from California and you win I will send you some options to choose from to replace the comb. Your odds of winning this depend on how many people participate and how many entries you have. I will choose the winner using a random generator. This will end on Oct. 20th, 2014. Message me if you have questions! 

furything:

furything’s store giveaway ~ these are available here

rules:

  • you must be 18
  • you must live in the united states
  • must reblog this once
  • likes count
  • you must be following me

how can i earn extra entries?

  • you can follow my instagram (furything)
  • you can follow my store instagram (shoploveless)
  • if you have any other ideas for extra entries just message me
  • (each one of these counts as an extra entry. i.e. if you reblog this, and follow both of my instagram accounts you will have three entries.) message me your insta user names if you follow me!

you will receive:

  • a ‘mean bitch’ pocket knife ($5 value)
  • a black comb knife ($14 value)
  • a large folding pink knife ($12 value)

If you live in California I cannot ship the comb knife to you because it is illegal in Cali. If you are from California and you win I will send you some options to choose from to replace the comb. Your odds of winning this depend on how many people participate and how many entries you have. I will choose the winner using a random generator. This will end on Oct. 20th, 2014. Message me if you have questions! 

richestwhiteboy:

Feminist — There is no Iggy, Lana, Marina, or Lorde in this mix. No white feminism here, bye.
i. Flawless BEYONCEii. Fxxk Boyz Get Money FEMMiii. Bad Girls M.I.Aiv. Long Way 2 Go CASSIEv. I Am The Best 2NE1vi. Muny NICKI MINAJvii. Queen JANELLE MONAEviii. Sexy, Naughty, Bitchy TATA YOUNGix. Anaconda NICKI MINAJx. Truth Or Dare GAINxi. Problem NATALIA KILLSxii. BO$$ FIFTH HARMONYxiii. I Am Your Leader NICKI MINAJ

richestwhiteboy:

FeministThere is no Iggy, Lana, Marina, or Lorde in this mix. No white feminism here, bye.

i. Flawless BEYONCE
ii. Fxxk Boyz Get Money FEMM
iii. Bad Girls M.I.A
iv. Long Way 2 Go CASSIE
v. I Am The Best 2NE1
vi. Muny NICKI MINAJ
vii. Queen JANELLE MONAE
viii. Sexy, Naughty, Bitchy TATA YOUNG
ix. Anaconda NICKI MINAJ
x. Truth Or Dare GAIN
xi. Problem NATALIA KILLS
xii. BO$$ FIFTH HARMONY
xiii. I Am Your Leader NICKI MINAJ

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#tbt to my strongest #eyebrowgame ever. I haven’t been able to reach those heights since.

#tbt to my strongest #eyebrowgame ever. I haven’t been able to reach those heights since.

Writing produces anxiety. Looking inside myself and my experience, looking at my conflicts, engenders anxiety in me. Being a writer feels very much like being a Chicana, or being a queer– a lot of squirming, coming up against all sorts of walls. Or its opposite: nothing defined or definite, a boundless, floating state of limbo where I kick my heels, brood, percolate, hibernate and wait for something to happen.

Gloria Anzaldúa, Borderlands

Women of Color, Impostor Syndrome, and The Left: On Being a Marxist Xicana Writer

Reading Borderlands in the midst of a most tempestuous period in my personal and poltical growth has proven to be an exercise in cultural identity as much as it has been a political challenge. One which promises many insights and revelations if I can just make it to the other side.

Part of the challenge, however, involves working thru these political and cultural questions thru writing, and like Anzaldúa, there is a great deal of anxiety I experience when writing. Becoming a writer has been one of the hardest endeavors I’ve ever undertaken, and identifying as a Marxist Xicana writer has been even harder.

However, because I don’t often write about myself or my lived experiences most of the anxiety I expereince comes from insecurities about my competence and skill. This, of course, is not a new thing. Women, and particularly women of color, suffer disporportionately from “impostor syndrome,” a psychological phenomenon in which people are unable to internalize their accomplishments despite evidence of their competence.

According to the Counceling Center at CalTech, “Impostor syndrome can be defined as a collection of feelings of inadequacy that persist even in the face of information that indicates that the opposite is true. It is experienced internally as chronic self-doubt, and feelings of intellectual fraudulence.”

I remember first learning of impostor syndrome about a year ago and feeling like I’d finally discovered the root of so much of my anxiety in academia as well as in activist circles. I now had a term for what I’d been feeling all my life and it’s been a taxing project I’ve had to undertake in order to be able to move forward as a woman of color writer and activist.

Perhaps this is why I have always subconsciously sought out recognition with more frequency than perhaps others do– not so much to fullfil a need to feel important or recognized, but rather as a means by which to convince myself of my own competency. And because I’m not just a woman, but a first-generation Xicana, I’ve had to straddle both worlds and convince myself AND them of my competency and worth.

Let me tell you, this shit is hella exhausting! So if we, the left, want to see more women of color getting involved and leading our movements, I’ma need y’all to be conscious of our socio-political struggles cause trying to survive is hard enough but we out here hustling to thrive in a world that’s stacked all possible odds against us.

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theovarianbarbarian:

genderphobia:

cheesecakefagtory:

Video of the century.

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S2FG this is me when I’m drunk.

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thinkmexican:

Mexico Takes to the Streets for Students of Ayotzinapa

Mexicans took to the streets on Wednesday in impromptu marches in support of students from a rural teachers’ college in Ayotzinapa, Guerrero, who were murdered and disappeared in late September. Police officers and cartel members are suspected of burying the students in mass graves, which were discovered on Saturday. The public outcry led to a call for a national march to demand justice.

More than 50 cities participated from Chiapas to Baja California.

Photos via Proceso, La Jornada

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